March 28, 2014
Dear brothers and sisters,
I am taking the good news today from John 11:55-57.
Now the Passover of the Jews was near, and many went up from the country to Jerusalem before Passover to purify themselves. They looked for Jesus and said to one another as they were in the temple area, “What do you think? That he will not come to the feast?” For the chief priests and the Pharisees had given orders that if anyone knew where he was, he should inform them, so that they might arrest him.
The Jews looked for Jesus, but Jesus was always right there among them all through his ministry. Why didn’t they seek him then? Jesus asked the same question of them earlier. The answer, I think, is that Jesus cannot be found out there, only in here, in my heart and my soul. That has been my way of seeking, of searching for most of my life. Searching in countless books and homilies and retreats. It wasn’t until I searched him out in my own heart that I found him, found him where he was all along. In discovering him there I experienced his abiding love for me and the capacity to love myself.
The Jews wondered if Jesus would come. They didn’t understand that he had already come into and continues to come. He told us that he is with us always. He is with me always and all I have to do is turn within my heart to find him, to be with him.